Update

I saw my surgeon today. What she told me was, I can survive this. That was nice to hear but then she got down to business: We are in the information gathering stage.

I've got more tests tomorrow, I'll give you a hint about which one I have to get first thing tomorrow morning (check a couple posts back). If genetically predisposed to cancer, then the treatment will be aggressive. If not, it will be more simple. Those test results take 5-10 working days to come back. The surgeon strongly suggests not doing anything until we have this information. Measure twice, cut once and all of that.

The other thing I'm having tomorrow is an MRI, the results of which will be returned tomorrow. In that test, they are looking to see if there are any more tumors and to get a good look at the one that we know is there. One report says its 1.1 cm while another says 1.5. She needs good data in order to know where to cut and how much to cut. I want squeaky clean edges all around where she cuts because that means she got all the cancer.

So, we are still in a holding pattern. Until all the information is compiled, I won't know some important things:

• Date of the surgery
• The nature of the surgery: just the tumor (my preference), or the whole breast
• If the cancer is isolated or if it has migrated outside of the breast into the lymph nodes (this information determines what 'stage' the cancer is)
• If having chemo would be helpful (radiation is extremely likely for my type of cancer, so that's a sure bet)
• The extent of just how shitty this whole thing will be

Here's what I do know for certain right now:

• I am feeling the love and support from you all
• All that love is sooooo helpful for me, you have no idea
• I love you guys to
• Really and truly
• I do not however, love pink. Sorry about this last one, but I've gotta keep it real.

Love and Muah